The its not you its me trash..., why does it hurt so much? Options

[saleeka]

So tonight i'm talking to the guy that ive been digging for just over a year now, on and off, and we start taliking about seroius stuff... we havent been anything with a tiltle for a while now but we confide in one another more than enough for it to end up being more than "somthing"... So i ask him if I can say somthing to him with no bullsh!t, he says yes, and I tell him that his personality and smarts really attract me to him more than his physical side ever has( hes a hockey player and way more fit than I), and that im tired of having to act as if its always a hookup (like once every 2 months or so)... and i kinda figured this but still it kinda sucks to hear but he tells me "im not ready to commit to anybody, its not you, i am a very selfish person in the long run and its best for me, its not to hurt you..." WTF? i tell him that that saddens me to hear that and that i think that he is capable of way more than he gives himself credit for and that he also deserves more than that... he then tells me that of all people id be the last he would want to hurt so it is better ths way ( i know he isnt lying when he says this), and that it truely isnt me and that i should understand... so now im at this crossroads with a guy that i honestly think i could say that I love, but seems he dosent feel the same way cause hes in denial or somthing... it feels as if a part of my soul has kinda died, for me and for him... he is older than me (im 20, hes 27) but at the same time the relationship is at that point where you think more about him than yourself, and i know that isnt just from my point of veiw... what should I do? should i just give him distance for a while or tell him that hes being dumb? i really dont know what to do because we have never been in a position where we have had to tell one another what to do or think about in all honesty... i really could see myself being with him for the time to come (im more of an old soul) but now he has me scared that HE isnt ready, and i dont want to loose him...

[creis]

best thing to do is give some space and see what happens, the line "i'm not ready to commit" is more of an "I'm not shure whats happening, let me catch up" if its been a year its obviously more cold feet about it then realy not being ready, i dont know what kinda relationship your looking to have, but it soulds serious. i bet that if you give some time he will figure it out and be able to give a real respose rather then a line. but keep in mind you dont wana give him like a years worth a space, enough is enough. if he ant diggin you i think he will figure it out pritty quick, but dont know who long it will take for him to tell you about it.

I would just be careful not to push a real respost out, make your that when you do get one its from who he is inside and not involiving any other factors.

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This post has been edited by creis: Nov 26, 2004 - 2:54 AM