ever feel like you just cant win?, i just keep losing Options

[redtcel]

I am having the worst year. a good friend of mine dies in a car accident. i lose the best job i've ever had cause they merged with another company and shut down all retail locations. my relationship has been on the rocks for a long time. i get some really good news, my best friend in the whole world wants to start over and he is looking for a job here. well he gets a job and moves up the next day. he has really been the pinicle of strength for me as of late. i feel like i am chronically depressed and when he and i hang out i just dont care about every thing. he lost the job and has been actively looking for a new one but not soon enough. my parents asked him to leave. they didnt even ask him what was going on in his search, they just wrote him a letter. i talked to them and they said they would like to talk to him about it and maybe we could work something out. he made up his mind though. my parents really hurt his feelings. he is leaving tomorrow and i dont know what to do. i am so weak, and i hate to sound gay but him being here is the best thing that has happend to me in a very long time. and now i am losing again. i feel like i am losing every thing. my job sucks, my relationship sucks, i have no friends but him, and he isnt even going to be here any more. "i tear my heart open just to feel" that is how i feel the papa roach song says it.

roboito.