Goodbye everyone., going on vacation. Options

[Mynzeyes]

i'll be back eventually, but i'm taking a break from everything. i've got to get my life straight.

at this point in my life, i'm at an all-time low. i have no belief in myself. i have very little in other people, and i've felt more pain in the last few days and weeks than i have in a long long time. even with what happened with my X. i'm convinced that no one would care if i packed all my things, and drove off with out telling everyone, but that's the point i'm in right now. people tell me they would, but i'm convinced that they just pity me, and want me to feel better. i don't understand a lot of things that are going on right now, and i'm going to figure them out, even if it's the last thing i do.

i need help, and i know that. so, i'm going to find a way to get it. i need to get school straight. and my home life. and my social life. if you think i'm a pansy or whatever because i'm leaving to get everything in order, that's your own opinion, and i respect it. i just need as little distractions as possible, and i need to get everything how i want it to be. i'm 23, and i work at a damn restaurant as a host...something's not right. i'm better than that. so i'm going to get it.

don't worry about me coming back, because i will be back, might be a week, might be a month, might be a year. there are just other things that have become a lot more important.

i've already talked to coomer about it, and as of tomorrow i will be a "normal member". upon my return, i may return to my position, but that will be determined at that time.

sorry to let anyone down, and g'luck to everyone w/ their projects.

i'll be on AIM still, maybe not as much, but whatever...

-John-

and btw, there's no convincing me to stay, but i might pop in every now and again while i'm @ school or something. ::shrug::

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[ghostdog]

never been a fan of these 'goodbye I'm leaving' posts. but John knows what he's gotta do and gosh darnit he is gonna git 'er done ..