Ever feel like you don't have what it takes? Options

[acenova]

Ever just feel down, like you're a loser with a wasted life? I'm 20 yrs. old, in college, never got great grades, but always good enough to pass. I've had jobs before, but never have money. I model, but for some reason feel inadequate in comparison. I have a beautiful, wonderful girlfriend that I've never been so happy with, and I don't feel I deserve her. I would do anything for her and for any of my friends, and I've always treated her the best that anyone has ever treated her before. Why is it that I'm scared I'm going to lose her? Why do I feel as though, even though her past boyfriends were asses and ****ed her over, I don't match up? Why is it that I feel that my material things and my lack of organization in life make me inadequate as a human and not fit to date this girl? I'm usually a fairly confident guy, I don't have it all, but I've got it pretty good. Yet realizing this, telling myself this, I am in shambles, and slowly becoming more and more insecure. Anyone have this??? Anyone get over this????

[ILuvMyCelica95]

I can totally understand where you are comming from. I have genetic depression, and i guess as a result horrible self esteem.
for example I've been singing since i was 4, and even though people are always telling me im very good I dont think im good enough. People are always telling me to record a demo or do something with my voice, But even if i can sing i dont think im pretty and unfortunatly you have to be to get somewhere.

Anyways, I can totally relate, hopefully your girl is there for you and tried to be understanding, I've dated guys who couldnt handle it.

I don't mean to get out of line but have you talked to a doctor about it? I mean i've been on meds since i was in 8th grade and they really do help alot.