Worst vacation ever Options

[chucho]

Left July 3rd to go see my girlfriend. Flew out there. Sick....throat swollen and ears pulsing. So I'm not feeling good at all but I still want to see her 'cause its been since may 13 since i saw her last. So without going to deep. We didnt talk much 'cause I was sick and everytime I would try to talk she either correct me or shoot down my statement. ie, I was talking about later in life when I could afford a weekend driver I would like one and she thinks its stupid to waste money on cars..whatever. So Sunday I finally just tired of it and tell her if she didnt want me there she should have told me. And she says she wants me there but thinks we have nothing in common 'cause we havent talked....I was sick, it hurt to take pills and you could hear my voice was different; it hurt to talk!! But whatever, so she gives me the spill of still wanting to be friends (which we'll be 'cause I've known her my whole life...which is what she thinks is our only thing we have in common) and that she wants me to stay for the rest of my time i'm suppose to be there (5 more days). So monday comes, and i'm still sick, and depressed 'cause I truely loved her but she over anyalzes things and whatever. So we talk that nite some more and she makes comments so I just say whatever, walk to my room and change my flight to leave tues. morning. So going from thinking i'm gonna spend all my time w/ this wonderful girl...to walking in off the plane to aggravated and already thinking whatever she was thinking and acting completely different. But whatever....I just needed to vent and life goes on. I just need to find a girl that can appreciate a good wholesome guy that just loves to spend time w/ her and get the same in return. I'm sure Stef can vouch that I was a good boyfriend. She enjoyed all our relationship prior to this. But her judgement of my lack of words, being sick, and thinking to much ended us.

[chucho]

Don't worry about me, I justed needed to vent...its tough. But I'll be fine and I do love her but nothing will ever happen. And I just have to get used to that idea. But we'll be friends.

Just helps to release everything... Put it out there where it wont get back to her...you know. I can talk to my friends but I cant say 2 much 'cause I dont want them any more angry w/ her. (we all grew up together) But she also now lives 500 miles away and 100 during the school year. So its not like she'll run into my friends anyway. But i cant allow them to do stupid stuff like text message her stuff like they wanted to do. I care to much for her and don't want to purposely hurt her. I know she feels really bad.

This is helping me alot.

"Letting go does not mean giving up, but accepting that there are things that cannot be."

This post has been edited by chucho: Jul 12, 2006 - 11:09 AM