my head is about to explode, ...bad day :-( Options

[axelrduvirage]

just had a bad evening. spent 1/2 an hour upside-down working on my neon courtesy lamps only to have "A" crush one of them. she was in a rush getting out of the car and "didn't remember" it was there. this was 5 minutes after i got her to help me with the job. i know being 14 can be distracting and self-serving at times but sheit!!! anyway i over-reacted and had one of my "fits" slamming sheit around and barking at everyone. sheit what a fouckup i am sometimes. i wasn't mad at "A", just mad and frustrated. "N" put the screws to me and really got my blood boiling because to her it's all about the car. i couldn't even get through to her that it's about pride in my possessions and the work and care i put into the vehicle. it could have been a foucking hooked rug or a piece of pottery...she just doesn't get it. anyway right now all i want to do is finish putting the car back together and selling it to the first person that makes a reasonable offer. sheit, i may let it go for less than i paid for it and fouck the extra 5G$ i've sunk into it.

i need a hug (or a drink, but "N" hid all the liquour after i went to the fridge for a barley chill pill...can't run to the booze to solve my problems i guess. BTW i drink about 8 beers a week )

APS

r.



This post has been edited by axelrduvirage: Jul 24, 2006 - 8:17 PM

[devilsden97]

yeah i know it's just a neon bulb. the real problem is how i reacted. had to go to therapy for exactly this. i was doing so well and things were really grat here and at work. i am just so fracking dissapointed in myself right now. i feel selling the Celi will solve the problem, but then the attention will just be focused on my next hobby/project. i just need a warm 6gc hug...i suck so bad

hey...u cant expect mircales....(i cant spell worth a damn)

just next time something gets u way pissed off, think of how u felt, after u went off the deepend this time.


oh yeah.... ::hug::