my head is about to explode, ...bad day :-( Options

[axelrduvirage]

just had a bad evening. spent 1/2 an hour upside-down working on my neon courtesy lamps only to have "A" crush one of them. she was in a rush getting out of the car and "didn't remember" it was there. this was 5 minutes after i got her to help me with the job. i know being 14 can be distracting and self-serving at times but sheit!!! anyway i over-reacted and had one of my "fits" slamming sheit around and barking at everyone. sheit what a fouckup i am sometimes. i wasn't mad at "A", just mad and frustrated. "N" put the screws to me and really got my blood boiling because to her it's all about the car. i couldn't even get through to her that it's about pride in my possessions and the work and care i put into the vehicle. it could have been a foucking hooked rug or a piece of pottery...she just doesn't get it. anyway right now all i want to do is finish putting the car back together and selling it to the first person that makes a reasonable offer. sheit, i may let it go for less than i paid for it and fouck the extra 5G$ i've sunk into it.

i need a hug (or a drink, but "N" hid all the liquour after i went to the fridge for a barley chill pill...can't run to the booze to solve my problems i guess. BTW i drink about 8 beers a week )

APS

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This post has been edited by axelrduvirage: Jul 24, 2006 - 8:17 PM

[axelrduvirage]

thanks DD97...i feel so sheitty right now. foucked up 2 months of therapy in 3 minutes.

This post has been edited by axelrduvirage: Jul 24, 2006 - 8:18 PM

[ScoobyDooCruiser]

thanks DD97...i feel so sheitty right now. foucked up 2 months of therapy in 3 minutes.

Don't dwell too much on that if you can—when I'm struggaling to kick something, the thing that kills me the most is when I start thinking about how bad I screwed up. The best way for me to get on my feet is just the realize I messed up, ask God for forgiveness (if you don't believe in anything, skip this step ) and then not worry about it. If I start flipping out about how bad I screwed up, and how much I wasted, I usually end up doing it again (like: I already screwed up, so why not do it again.)

my 2¢. Either way, it doesn't sound to me like you over reacted that badly. We all would get ticked about something like that (at least all of us who are human; certainly me).