my head is about to explode, ...bad day :-( Options

[axelrduvirage]

just had a bad evening. spent 1/2 an hour upside-down working on my neon courtesy lamps only to have "A" crush one of them. she was in a rush getting out of the car and "didn't remember" it was there. this was 5 minutes after i got her to help me with the job. i know being 14 can be distracting and self-serving at times but sheit!!! anyway i over-reacted and had one of my "fits" slamming sheit around and barking at everyone. sheit what a fouckup i am sometimes. i wasn't mad at "A", just mad and frustrated. "N" put the screws to me and really got my blood boiling because to her it's all about the car. i couldn't even get through to her that it's about pride in my possessions and the work and care i put into the vehicle. it could have been a foucking hooked rug or a piece of pottery...she just doesn't get it. anyway right now all i want to do is finish putting the car back together and selling it to the first person that makes a reasonable offer. sheit, i may let it go for less than i paid for it and fouck the extra 5G$ i've sunk into it.

i need a hug (or a drink, but "N" hid all the liquour after i went to the fridge for a barley chill pill...can't run to the booze to solve my problems i guess. BTW i drink about 8 beers a week )

APS

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This post has been edited by axelrduvirage: Jul 24, 2006 - 8:17 PM

[DomGT]

I keep my mind on my loved ones, and that keeps my thoughts clear and on the right path. It's easy to beat yourself up, but instead, PICK yourself up. Good luck, you'll do better next time.