For all the ppl out there, who live away from their parents Options

[NaderG]

SO ! i am pretty much sick with living at home , i have had it with being bossed around , yelled at , called names and consistently abused and of course no matter what i do to make things better , it never does and i end up being hurt a bit more !
now that i am done with my introduction , i will now tell you what are my current choices for this situation :
1- Stay living here , miserable of course , constantly distracted from school and work by the over sized drama load that is really ridiculous , which will eventually lead me to choice number 3

2- Here where my question is : I am thinking of moving out of here, and get my own life .... i don't have any friends, and i don't know really where to go but i was wondering about the cost of living , specially here in so-cal ... this choice is really not easy .... anyways , i can kind of see my self with this choice , basically working 10X harder , going to school ( college) , i will also be outcasted by the community of people i live in ( Egyptian people ) and still pretty miserable ... eventually choice 3 will start looking good

3- of course the big one , lol .... well , it is really simple , it has something to do with some pills and lots of water , or maybe car exhaust in a unventilated area ...and then everything turns out better.. i think thats enough hints

ya i know i sound like i am whining like a baby , but its really hard( and way too long) to explain what i been going through for the last ...... **** i don't know how long , it feels like forever and it seems like it never going to end ......

i dont know why i am posting this on here , but i dont know anywhere else where i can let this off my chest , specially that no one really knows who i am on here ....

This post has been edited by NaderG: Oct 24, 2007 - 10:24 PM

[NaderG]

well , here is a small over view of the issue ..... dad has anger issues , liver disease and is lives in the 18th century.... he has no drinking problem , he used to beat me when i was a kid but stopped and started yelling at me instead ( saying things that hurt ), and since we are from the Egyptian culture , i am not supposed to do **** about it , no moving out until married ( ya right ), since my dad is really classic , closed minded and pretty stupid he doesn't want me hanging out with any " American" friends ( WTF ? ), no Gf allowed ( implied rule) but he clearly and specifically told me to stay away from girl contact , which he makes sure by continuously searching my phone contact list , car and my room ... Me ? i do everything he says an more , i do have a bit of an attitude towards him but i keep it in check , i been in college since 16 , doing great ( 3.4 GPA) averaging about 14 Units a semester , school year round ( winter and summer ) , been working since forever , pay my own **** , as i mentioned i do everything he says and more ...... i get a bit of financial aid every month or two that i am almost always forced to give away to my sister and him due to a fight ( just happened a day ago) , He continuously flips out on me and tells me that i am not the son he wants and that i am failure and that i don't deserve living with him and the rest of the family , and when i try to talk to my mom and sisters about me , they blame ME for all that saying that i should watch what i do with him since he is sick ( hepatitis C ).... hanging out with new people..... i find that extremely difficult , i am really different than anybody around me , i dont know how to explain it but i am just really different ... i have difficulty finding friends .... and no i am not a total nerd or whatever , i am just different , being from different background and all ....... So ya , moving in with my GF is not an option since i dont have one ( and i don't think i can even approach a girl anyways) , Roomates ... i dont know ..... ....... uh ....