I'm done with work,, but I still have to sit here until my shift is over. Options

[MaskedMan]

Ok so I couldn't sit at home and wait any longer. There was no way I was going to sleep, so I went up to Azusa canyon again, it's where i go to unwind, not even by driving, but just enjoy the silence and think. My life is falling apart but I'm holding it together. I'm not doing it for anyone else, I'm doing it for myself, and I need to keep on fighting. Tonight in the canyons was different. It's actually a VERY interesting story, and this might be borderline "general discussion" rather than "off topic" haha. So I was just sitting, reminicing on life and how things got this way. I heard a car coming and it pulls up behind me. So basically this late, I figure, oh great, a cop telling me to get out of here. The thing about it was that, it wasn't a cop. It was another driver, but the interesting thing was, that it was a Celica, which is probably why it stopped by me. All I saw at first were bright lights, but I soon reconized the headlights. It was actually another 6gc in the canyons. I had never been up in the canyons on a Friday night, I don't like to go up there on weekends because it's dangerous. But anyways, it's a blue (or purple [i'm colorblind]) 6gc coupe. But it was different than any other blue i've seen on a 6gc, it was like a dark blue. 94/95 spec bumper, and yeah. So im like wow cool, now what is this guy going to tell me? Here's where the story gets interesting. The engine shuts off, the lights turn off, and guess what? It's not a guy. She get's out of the car and tells me she saw me driving on the way up so she turned around to follow me. Basically the conversation went like.

MaskedMan: Hey, what's up?
MysteryGirl: Hi! I was driving down the mountains and saw your headlights and decided to turn around.
MaskedMan: Really? I've been up here for awhile now, it took you that long to turn around?
MysteryGirl: Well I wasn't sure if you were a Celica at first or if I should go after you.
MaskedMan: Sorry I have a gf, I don't need anymore stalkers.
MysteryGirl: That's fine I'm only interested in your car.
MaskedMan: Sorry your not it's type.
MysteryGirl: Really? That's a shame? So what type does your car go after?
MaskedMan: My car is shallow, it only like's good looking Celicas.
MysteryGirl: What!? Your saying my Celica doesn't look good!?
MaskedMan: Well maybe if you lowered it, it wouldn't be 3 feet off the ground.
MysteryGirl: Hey! It's lowered! Well pshh, it's what's on the inside that counts anyways.
MaskedMan: Oh, haha alright right on, so what's under your hood?
MysteryGirl: hmmm You show me yours, I'll show you mine.
MaskedMan: I have a bunch of slowness under my hood, you don't wanna see.
MysteryGirl: Aww, and I thought your celica was worth seeing too.
MaskedMan: Well, it's not. So what about you?
MysteryGirl: I'm always worth seeing ^_~v.
MaskedMan: -_-*.... So doesn't look like you have anything done to the outside of your Celica.
MysteryGirl: Nope, I don't have that much money.
MaskedMan: Well I like your hubcaps, are those JDM?
MysteryGirl: Haha, they sure are ^_^. I imported them.
MaskedMan: So what do you want to do to it?
MysteryGirl: I'm not sure yet, I want it to go faster.
MaskedMan: Join the club.
MysteryGirl: It's good for now, I just got it not that long ago. I have a DVD player in it!
MaskedMan: Well that's a start. I have one too.
MysteryGirl: Do you just wanna trade cars please?
MaskedMan: I'll think about it.
MysteryGirl: Really!?
MaskedMan: No.
MysteryGirl: Dammit man haha.
MaskedMan: So what are you doing up here so late?
MysteryGirl: Oh, well, I was on my way home, but I saw you so, yeah.
MaskedMan: Oh that's nice, so you usually stalk people in the mountains?
MysteryGirl: All the time yo.
MaskedMan: Gosh, I don't feel so special anymore.
MysteryGirl: Haha alright well, I gotta get going. nice to meet you.
MaskedMan: Alright cool cool, have a good nite.
MysteryGirl: See you at the bottom?
MaskedMan: Errrr, yeah I should be getting home anyways, it's getting late.
MysteryGirl: Alright I hope you can keep up
MaskedMan: I'll try.

The convo went something like that, there was more but it was mainly jibber jabber. Talk like 3sgte and my Tein suspension and what not and me explaining every question thrown at me, "ooOo! where did you get your yellow high beams!?", "how much did this all cost you!?".

So anyways, we're driving down the mountain, and she actually takes off on me. So I give chase, but only there's one problem. I couldn't keep up! That was a huge punch in the face because Azusa Canyon isn't a very difficult canyon to run. Most of the curves are wide, but there are a few sharp ones. She actually lost me...T.T

So I didn't see her for the rest of the night, but you know what I always forget to do? I forgot to get her name! Wait I think she told me... but I don't remember it at all hahaha it's fine, I probably will never see her again anyways. But this has given me new challenges. All this time I actually thought I was rather good in terms of handling, but tonite I totally got a slap in the face. I'm inspired to get those sway bars in now and get a stickier set of tires mhm. So I'm home now and I'm ready to go to sleep after a wierd night like tonight haha. Wow that was a long story haha. But you know what I realized tonight? That I am completely happy with what I have in life. A year ago, I may have been totally interested in this Celica girl, but now, I couldn't be happier with my girlfriend and the way my life is . I think I finally figured out life.

[celicaST]

good story, but she must of not been good looking if you cant remember her name. thats always a sign

[MaskedMan]

She was an asian girl thats all i remember. MaskedMan is not interested nope nope

[thespacepanda]

*slap*

[MaskedMan]

I THINK her name was.....I wanna go with Amy? Anyways, just imagine an small asian girl, about 5' tall, some colors in her hair, and wearing a hoodie. I would have told her about 6gc.net, but I can never find a way to work that into a conversation with another 6th gen owner haha oh well. So I think I figured it out how she lost me! Ok, so it was raining that day (yeah I know, great time to go to the canyons right? haha) It wasn't raining when I was up there but things were still wet. At worst there was a small drizzle, but nothing major. So my conclusion is that my tires are bald which is why I was not able to grip in the canyons that night. So in a dry condition I should be able to keep up! Haha I've given it too much thought dammit haha.

[thespacepanda]

*hard slap*

[MaskedMan]

Alright guys, change of subject, my mind is driving me crazy .

I feel like I'm two separate guys inside, and it's tearing me apart.

The first guy wants this really exciting life, wants to be single and doesn't have a care in the world. He can't be emotionally hurt because he just doesn't care. He moves on from things very often and is really strong willed. He just wants to go out and have a good time. He wants to go out and party and just forget about everything and basically enjoy being young.

The second guy wants to settle down, he wants to get married, he wants a family. He always does the right thing and he actually cares about what happens in the future. He has strong morals and goals in life but is so afraid of being put down or abandoned he is afraid to make a move. He's so confused right now he just doesn't want to be here.

I'm incredibly confused right now going back and fourth and back and fourth. It's not that I want to be single, I know that I don't, but It's a common practice for me to erase my life and start fresh every year. With new friends, a new life, a new me. Why do I do this? Because I always feel like I mess things up soo bad. I over think a lot of things, but I just have no idea what I want to do. I could mess up an entirely good thing just because of stupid stuff I do. I feel like I'm so messed up right now. For the past week, all I've felt like doing is sleeping and not being part of the world, and not having any friends, I don't even want to see any of my family as of right now. For Christmas and New Years I just want to spend it alone, in bed, under my covers with my eyes closed and in silence. I have these highs and lows in life, and yeah, It's not like I'm having a bad day or anything. I don't like to have bad days, no one does, but i always make the best out of them. I guess I'm just really confused right now and I wish things were simple again ya know? I guess I've just never been at THIS point in my life since I've always reset everything. I've never had a real friend, or a real relationship and I guess I'm afraid becuase I've never had to deal with anything this big, and It scares me. I never had to deal with feelings or love or regret or any of this . I feel like I've lost everything I stood for and I feel like I need to find a new meaning in life. I need a reason to go on..

Wow I realized how dramatic I just sounded after that last sentence. Really, no I'm not emo or anything haha, I'm just so confused inside and I have no idea what to do and feel like I needed to vent a little of it out before I went crazy haha.

[JoKeRkId613]

work on that game, player. lol. that was terrible.

[MaskedMan]

work on that game, player. lol. that was terrible.

wtf are you talking about? is there some sort of game i'm supposed to be playing?

[MarcoGTS]

wow haha ur first post was interesting, haha somewhat reminded me of Initial D for some odd reason....hahahahaha hmm.. this asian chick look cute? damn man u shoulda called me to go up there too!!! >_<

[MaskedMan]

omg forget about the asian chick wtf. is this the first time you guys have ever heard of an asian girl driving a car before? it's not a big deal. There are a lot girls out there that drive cars and they have hella nice ones too. I've met a lot of girls who drive fixed up miata's, S13's, Crx's, Integras, and Corollas. There's that one group of girls called the Lady Assassins. I met them a few months ago at the 240sx meet. As far as I can remember, they are a drift team made up of girls. The girl I work with in school everyday knows hella **** about cars. When were working on a car she knows exactly what to do, i think she knows more than me -_-*. She's uh kinda weird haha but it's alright, it's kinda funny haha.

Ok but anyways, have you ever just woken up, and immediatly your day seems crappy? Well yeah, welcome to my day today mhm .

[Jen]

okay, seriously. what the fck.

[JoKeRkId613]

work on that game, player. lol. that was terrible.

wtf are you talking about? is there some sort of game i'm supposed to be playing?

uh, yeah?

[MaskedMan]

Bleh updateness.

Work has practically blocked every single website (except for this one hehehe). I can't even go on aim at work anymore now . Sooo, I didn't think it would come to this, but hehe, I'm going go start bringing my computer into work now so I will have access to all my heart's desires . Mainly I'll use it to play video games in the late night hours though haha. Can you believe this? I'm working until 11pm at nights and I gotta be at school at 8am in the morning. How lame, and to top it off, I'm working 6 days a week. No sleep for me T.T.

Oh oh oh! But yeah, update! So speaking of work, guess who decided to stop by and pay me a VERY VERY unexspected visit? None other than our favorite mystery Celica girl who I called Amy haha oops. Actually her name is Alyssa (sp?). I was close! I knew it had an A in it, and sometimes Y. But she showed up and I was like.... -_-*.....how did she find me.... Haha jk apparently I told her where I work? Anyways I was like, as always, "oh oh oh! look look look 6gc 6gc!!!" I told her to go away cause this is Lexus side, Toyota side is over there mhm haha. But it was a good time for her to show up because today at work we were DEAD.

haha oh oh but haha i did have a really good drive to drop off one of our Lexus guests today. I drove this lady home, she was older and she looked like the lady from 40 year old virgin, she might have been idk. So anyways, I asked her where she lived, and she told me Diamond bar. And im like hmm... how do we get there? And she's like wow you really don't know where it is? It's a really big asian community. And then im like haha wow, nope I can't sense other asians. Haha and then she made a comment about since everyone is asian in Diamond Bar, nobody there can drive so I need to watch out haha oh man too hilarious. And then we basically go on talking about pretty much our life stories. And haha I tell her I don't know CA too well because I just moved out here two years ago from Ohio. And she was like wow Ohio? Country boy in the big city, girls out here want to marry guys like you. And im like hahaha, really? I must be meeting the wrong girls then . jk jk. And then she asked me what kinda girls I like and stuff haha and im like wow, this is a very personal shuttle drive isn't it? Do you have someone in mind for me? jk . And then she's like well, do you like girls in Ohio or here better? Girls in Ohio are sweeter I bet, and the girls out here are very wild. And im like ehh...they have their ups and downs haha, I only like girls in Florida mhm . All in all, it was probably one of the most entertaining shuttle drives I've been on in awhile haha, I have many more stories but I just wrote a buttload without noticing. This ends now mhm. Happy Holidays everyone.

[MaskedMan]

Wow an even more updated update!

Ok my friend, or well, co-student just called me. Apparently he's not going to class tomorrow. And yeah usually it's no big deal, except well, there's this project kinda due tomorrow and he's kinda my partner. He called me up, just now, and was like, hey man, did we take our Midterm already? And im like, no it's next week, we have lab tomorrow and our report is due. And he was like, oh yeah I'm really busy, and i got all i need out of that class already so I don't think i'm gunna go anymore. And im like, but uh... we're presenting our report tomorrow and it's really important for our grade. And he was like, well I'm not gunna pass anyways, well i just wanted to let you know im not gunna be there anymore ttyl.

So like yeah, I'm sitting here thinking wow, another all-nighter... great. I had already picked up the majority of the work and now I have 6 hours to finish up the rest of it. This blows, I was really looking forward to a night of sleep tonite. My instructor is going to yell at me tomorrow because my "team" is incomplete and the course is supposed to encourage our ability to cooperate and work with others we may or may not get along with. Great way that turned out huh?

So on a lighter note I just made myself a meal and I realized that i eat really simple stuff. I took a large leaf of lettuce and layed it on a plate, it covered the whole plate mmm it looked like a good start for a meal. I said to myself, "hmm this lettuce looks like it could wrap something." So then i go in the fridge and there's really nothing much in there. But i manage to find some mushrooms and threw those on, and added some cabbage too. Found some chicken and threw some on there too. Found some italian cheeses so i'm like score! This is a good find! and i threw the rest of that on there. Basically my late night meals consist of combining together any and all foods I can find in the refridgerator, which generally isn't a lot.

[xs94st]

BAM kick it up a sh!tload lol

my favorite quote in this thread:

*hard slap*

lol. lets party socal people, lets party..

[MaskedMan]

Why are people slapping me!? Someone please use words and not violence please. Thank you.

[prowzee]

pArty TiME.. school's almost out!

[MaskedMan]

This project blows. I never want to hear about electronic braking systems ever again.

[Jen]

Oh oh oh! But yeah, update! So speaking of work, guess who decided to stop by and pay me a VERY VERY unexspected visit? None other than our favorite mystery Celica girl who I called Amy haha oops. Actually her name is Alyssa (sp?). I was close! I knew it had an A in it, and sometimes Y. But she showed up and I was like.... -_-*.....how did she find me.... Haha jk apparently I told her where I work? Anyways I was like, as always, "oh oh oh! look look look 6gc 6gc!!!" I told her to go away cause this is Lexus side, Toyota side is over there mhm haha. But it was a good time for her to show up because today at work we were DEAD.

it's really great that you decided to share this. now everyone is going to be like, damn playa. [/sarcasm]